after all the bangs, roars, bites, screams, loves;

won't say goodbye!

2009-12-18T08:51:41Z

because of you, everything's beautiful ♥
and no one else will have that patience, love, understanding for me!
you know i love you, yes i do (:

i love friday, all fridays!
sometime i really love you. sometime i really hate you!
the hug that's powerful enough to shut me up! (:

i love all the dearies!
she said it's a test that have been going on for the past few months!
now, i have a clearer mind of what and who i want in life!
so, i am gay with everything in life (:

i will be nice, patience and understanding towards you. i promise!

PTBL will be the one!

2009-10-26T16:03:46Z

don't compare yourself with him cause you're the special one and you will always be!
as i said so! and, please learn how to say "no" to me!
lil cousin always said i bullied him. i didn't ok!
SMJ, that's not bully, that's love! haha (:

2 more weeks. just 2 more weeks to freedom!

that's the cut i got it while doing a card for him!
he said if i dare to have another cut on the other side of my face to make it "balance", he will kill me!
haha. siao!

i want her to stay over!
there again, it's already week 13 !!!

iloveyou, dearfriend (:

2009-10-16T19:19:00Z

your words are powerful enough
and whenever i wanna say something, i thought you wont know but actually you know what's up my mind. it's scary but i think it's the positive sign from you so hmmm... you're not retarded as what i think you are. i think i love you more now, how! being unreasonable is my forte towards you, remember? it doesn't matter much too right? haha!

to-do-list coming up one by onee. damnit*
star 69, 77strings flow on pleasee!

i don't know why they want to psycho her. i don't see the point at all. friends aint supposed to be like them! just spread more love around people! ego; is there a need to show when u're with someone you are comfortable with?!

to bed, to bed.
hearts*

fat boy slim

2009-10-09T17:30:49Z

oh no, i can feel that my ears gonna suffer!
FAT BOY SLIM! too loud. too noisy. you called that music!
no offence for the fans but what the luck again!
challenge my ass! maybe the "wonderful night" is the nicest alrd!

futureme.org
sounded familiar?
if you are in tania's class before. you will know.
a website which u're able to send an email to the future "you"
every year. i will send email to the futureme! (:
it's fun, try it.! cause i just got futureme mail from the past me (:
a very good self reminder thou' and selfchecked!

it's a wonderful night (:
polaroids are loved. too much consumption for the past mth, i like!
goodnight world. it's the weekend again.
and next week, it's gonna be week 11 and soon, assessment coming!

i am disfigured! he said great!

2009-10-08T13:14:23Z

like this looked like you're gonna be mine! banghishead*

i am the stupid one. clumsy is me. i am clumsy!
i dont know how i ended having one cut on my face. the fast swipe cut. as normally people got cuts on their hand rather then face with penknife! it just happened too fast ytd night while doing my cutting, then the next moment i know, i was bleeding! on face, at least a finger length cut! skipped school today cause was emo-ing about the cut on face... haha! met up with him after his school and the moment he looked at me, my face... his expression, priceless! haha, i like. (: he asked me not to smile too much, talk too much, eat too much, laugh too much cause it will takes a longer time for my cut to heal. i laughed at him the moment i saw his expression cause i know he will love me still even thou' i am more "man" now (: haha!

i feel like skipping class tml but then again, i have skipped too much fridays class so i shldnt (:

friday. friday. friday.
0910, 0910, 0910 (:
another year to quarrel and fight right!
dont look back, just walk or run!
i remembered how "i dont want to say i love you at all" (:

penny loves all !

Post it

2009-10-04T07:36:51Z

Note to self; ms penny, please do your sch work and focus on ONE regard anything you know, you knew it all!
Well well, tight it down... 5 more weeks ! No more IFS, cause it gonna be you will and you must... Come on, let's do it right.

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Reality

2009-10-04T07:31:07Z

I know no matter what we gonna face it one day. So now, I am telling you this; yes, I am ready to take up whatever challenges that gonna meet us. It wont be a smooth journey I know but I believe we will make it through again and again just like how we did for the past few years (: and don't ask me silly questions cause you knew the answers! It will always be the same. Never give up, will not give up. Cause we were both happy, we know. ihearts
I like to keep you guessing though (: double eyelids and dimple are your trademark!

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anticipate !

2009-10-02T17:30:12Z

next week, next week.
everything will be better for next week (:
i will make it better !

ps; i will try to be more patience and understanding

huggable!

2009-09-28T12:32:30Z

i dont like you! i think i love you instead
they said you're an expensive bf material, so can i refund it now?
cause i'm not able to afford that. (:

project week's over!
peeps, 7 more weeks to assessment !!!
yesterday was room cleaning day = crazyyy
after work went ikea with him. went to alexander ikea instead cause daddy's over at tampines ikea. my room is so much neater/cleaner compared to the past few months! and i realised i didnt pack my room at all during the 3 mths holiday! packing of my room involved daddy and mommy's help! i threw things, they cleaned! the amount of papers i have wasted on printing, writing, scribbling, sketching is huge! it took me freaking 8 hrs to clean my room! actually there's still somemore things unclear but leave it till holiday

i did only the minors, how about the majors! damnit*
ate 20 packs of kinder bueno to think of the ads but nothing's great is coming out!
so this week, i must finish up all the works asap as next monday i'll be the nice driver (: from pasir ris to boon lay to changi to bukit batok to imm to yew tee back to pasir ris. i can imagine myself not going to do any single piece of shit for school on next monday.

if you are happy, i am really happy too. no lies. ihearts (:
i just have alot to say, to ask, to know cause i need assurance from you.
i prefer to talk and get the direct answers from you. i dont like silent killer! haha (:

the month of october is arriving!
someone's bdae coming!
special day is on october too! (:
you know the plan, keep it a secret please!
xoxoxo

it's tuesday tml... week 9 ! eeee

So dead

2009-09-18T09:07:26Z

It wasn't supposed to be like this, not at all ! I need to be more clear headed! One more time, that's it baby! You should know what will happen is there's another time. Deal with it or leave it !

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run don't walk

2009-09-15T22:46:16Z

freedom is so far awayyy.
just when i thought after this week, just after this week. i will have a few proper days to play, rest.
i am so WRONG ! it's a project week not holiday week, damn!
next week, need to touch up/redo some works. cpj is sucha plain book!
next week, need to go back to sch again which i really hate to.
i hate to count the time left but i have to!
what does kinder bueno got to do with finger licking good?! that's so KFC la!
i am gonna do it my way! stupid ad, stupid tagline!
8 to 10 more weeks to go...

i am always the one complaining non stop!
when i am stress, you will also be stress with me.
when i am happy, you will always see me smile.
when i am upset, you will always see me cry.
when i am thinking, you will always try to help.
when i am angry, you will always be the target!
but still, thanks for being so patience, really patience! understanding, really understanding (:
you're the best, heartsweetheartt

i dont miss you anymore

2009-09-12T05:17:14Z

one week ago.
for the better, one week later !
better days ahead.

hang on, one more week to go (:
projects and still projects.

one more need to go!

2009-09-04T16:41:03Z

i think i am lucky enough.
i shall stop complaining and be contented with what i have now...
say "hi" to mabby, tobby, poddy and soon, caddy will join in!
and yes, i am contented with who i have in life.
the friends. the bitchh. the family. the love. the sweet (:

goodnite people
off to research on kinder bueno, what an ad !
SURF.TAP.CLICK!

to wake up with you by my side = heaven (:
silly, i am so much happier now and i am still wondering why you have made that choice still. even thou' i am sucha bitch at times.! but come on, who's nice when they are angry! you know i love you! (:

for the better

2009-08-31T10:33:31Z

sept will be a better month, i promise!
with you around, i know everythings gonna be alright !
thank you, truly appreciated (:

this week, it's gonna be a dead week .
come on penny, 3 more days !!!

i like working with the lovelies around.
must work with happy people then your time at work will be so much happier!

and they said

2009-08-27T07:39:58Z

used to be everyday, now it's once a week.
oh well, fair and square. we are all busy people! haha!
i love the one with that dimples and double eyelids (:
it's not easy at all and we both knew it.

heartsweetheartt
october is coming soon!
i will handmade everythings, again! (:

arrived faster than i expected, it's like only 3 days and i have got them in hand. ((: gonna read up, learn more, touch and feel it !

i am doing work which are not mine and i felt that it's my work actually !
stupid !

i think i love you.

2009-08-19T22:07:21Z

i am having a love.hate for fridays.!

recipe. recipe. recipe!
stupid, c.juices are still having their holiday.!
totally no mood for anything. now.
it's running, running nonstop again for nothing productive/creative but rubbish!

happy pills, how?
to do or not.?
i dont like you anymore.
once is really enoughhhhh

too much.too over.!
turn round and round and rounddd

i dont care anymore

2009-08-17T19:01:59Z

i dont really like fridays now cause there's classes on friday !
i am thinking of meeting my lil cousin every week, now i cant.
i am thinking of going to the usual place at bedok to blade, now i cant
i am thinking of sleeping in late on friday, now i cant
and now, friday lesson till 6pm! worse, i'm having a slight phobia of attending friday's lesson too!
and maybe the only happy thing that can happen on fridays is. meeting you for dinner !

reformatted the stupid laptop! and luckily, the virus is gone and i am able to install antivirus in.!
so msn wont be able to kick me out. had a hard time convincing mommy, i guessed this time round... it's a pass and it's the only best solution i can think of, approach mommy for help...!

reflected.
not just the man but the only man. do you get me now?
i know it's not easy at all esp when handling my stupid temper and i guessed only you will be able to handle it.
i need everyone who i love to be happy and healthy! yes, please be.!
care for the selective ones (:

on the wayyy

2009-08-12T17:49:56Z

alittle disappointed i must say but then it's not his fault so i cant get angry with him!
thanks mr silly for trying so hard and get a summon for speeding home to sign for it. really that blur.stupid man! haha, anyway since i'm ms nice penny! i have already placed some cash in your car, go and find it!

everythings in process... i like
saving in process
drawing in process
thinking in process
forgetting in process
loving in process
sleeping well in process
learning in process

and instead of doing my own work! being a nice sis, i am helping my lil bro with his DnT portfolio! and his portfolio.! fantastic, next week gonna be the deadline and he only had a few pages done! gosh, need to find mr tan for helpp since he's my mentor back in secondary (: next few days will be busy so kukus, gyming next week ok! will continue to love you guys next tuesday. it's not excuses! it's responsible, i told you guys beforehand! and, i know aly will be uderstanding but mr kiang, please be more understanding ok!

attention all kukus; dinner together will be at fish and co. next wednesday! venue and timing wise, text you pple again! hugs*

23 more in process!
i dont know should i like or hate friday class now... geez!
he passed me some of his virus, so i am with virus again!

maybe .loving you. is in process too (:

decision made!

2009-08-05T17:46:36Z

for you, i will (:
and, the list is getting longer!
i saw the polaroid i want. but then again... digital camera will be on the list first!
sheesh~

let it be, let it be.
he said, she said, they said ! i will ok.
i didnt made the call anyway, i wasnt the one who pressed the green button. i am mainly just talk without using brain on that day. but then again, they all are so right! knock some sense in me thou' ! hw said tell him that, stop behaving like a wussy and talk to me like a man can! haha!

i need to blade again, to run again, to swim again, to cycle again, to do alot of things again! and now, to work harder again. yet again. gyming later on with the kukus (:

and, bangbang is my classmates again! dont worry babe, we will have lesson with DC5C still on friday! so you will be able to see my bf and ur new target still. haha! even thou' i know u would prefer to go back to ur actual class but being in the same class with us is gonna be better ok!

i want to have a proper dinner with love on every fridays. stop me from snacking ok! (:

penny loves you, still you.
make love not war!
xoxoxo

in life

2009-08-04T08:25:21Z

pet society!
i cant believed she did that. haha! created a so ugly pet for meee. nvm. named it as lala, nvm. and then, earned all the credits and buy things for her pet instead! wanted to sell everythings in my hse for her pet! kuku sia! but my dear, i still love you even thou' you're so childish ok! seeyou laterrr :p

to get in touch with the baby everyday actually brighten up my days (:
small little tiny one, carry him in one arm is like playing with a toy. and, baby language are always so damn cute... baby julliannnn
skipped school today, woke up at 3pm, damn shiok! i didnt sleep that much during my holidays la. and now sch starts but i like my timetable for this sem ((:

peeps, dont open any file from me cause i didnt send any of them out. eliz smsed me then i realised it's a virus file and jac remind me it's time to get my mbp!
yes, i know.!
so mr silly, WHERE is your credit card? hahaha :p
hugs*

i am guilty for loving you

things that i've gave

2009-08-03T13:16:45Z

wont take it back. and, to let go, i have to open up. i am doing it well actually (:
tend to act before they think! that's capricorn!
anyway, i have mastered the art of patience! ((:
waited once in ntu/nie for one and the half hour, then 2 weeks ago was two and half hour. anyway, amanda is always the one giving me WRONG advice ! telling me to do things which i shldnt. :p

reflected
i love mr silly (:
cant ask for more but for him to stay and continue the way he is.
6 years . collection.memories.past.present.future.love.always.forever

mr kiang weilun is so damn lazy can! sleeping like a pig now.! sheesh!
tues and thurs gym pls! u're so not healthy now!!!
no more monday blues

let it be !

2009-07-19T15:25:40Z

clearer now.! thanks (: even thou' once said one day, there will be a post of "i dont miss you anymore" it's 50% now... am pretty sure one day there will be a 100% of i dont miss you anymore up, soon.! slowly, his image will fade away bit by bit. in fact, his image starts to fade... but this is a post of i dont love you anymore. was it love in the first place.! haha, i dont know. i am pretty sure of, i dont want to know anything, anymore! let it be, let it be... friend will still be friend, i am nice ok! haha
click and go !

yeah yeah! everyone gonna be in the same class! i like (:
august coming soon! even thou' i am so not prepared !
but i know i have the sweet to guide me through once again!
i need the mbp, i want the ipod touch, i need the digital camera, i want the polaroid !
gosh, the needs and the wants (:

why ms penny is so lazy ah! and it's all because sweet's fault that i am rotten! <3

for my sake

2009-07-04T03:53:53Z

doctor said i am discharged ! (:
so i dont need to go back to SGH for any checkups ! ((:
being patience and understanding, bonus !
happier and healthier, i will be !

and listening to how he mentioned about his first week in new school made him sounded like a little boy!
nobody dare to give u work to do.! you wait yea! and i know you will be happier and better in ur new sch.
show them what you've got ok. (: and stop whining ! haha
goodluck my dear.

this polaroid bid farewell ! and i'm only left with one camera to play with!
i ~~want~~ need a new d.cam, a new polaroid soon.
but mbp is in the top list now ! sheesh~

time to take a bath then to bed.
xoxoxo <3

once was enough!

2009-06-30T16:41:12Z

i have tried but i think it's hard...
~~i love you~~, was that so wrong! it's stupid, i know! everyone saying that to me.!
i really wished to know.! but i wasnt given a chance to find out what've goes wrong.
he remains too silent. too silent ! and it's actually bothering me still.
oh well, sch starts and i guessed i wont be hearing any news from him, about him.
and i dont have enough courage to sms and call, reasons cause i scared the same thing will happen again...
i have typed out a whole loads of text, thinking of should i send over the sms but i just simply backspaced everythings.
what's new.? as usual, he's gonna be superb busy with stuffs. as usual !
it's too fast and i am too slow to adapt changes.

there's somethings you just cant let go.
not even everything else is forcing you to
i am not ready to say goodbye but i know i have to.
tell me something i dont know!
he wont know, he will never know
was just eyecandy and i dont know how it turned out to crush!
love-hate the month of decemeber, he appeared out of no where, out of the sudden !
can we just rewind back only when i just started working! when everythings was so peaceful.
i just got to work as much as possible to keep myself busy and make myself tired. really tired as i have got a hyperactive mind that's racing like nobody's business when i am too free!

damn! who to blame? only myself.
i'm coward, i'm selfish, i'm ugly, i'm fickle minded, i'm a sucker for love
thank you

last time, please let it be.

looking back, still !

2009-05-30T10:34:22Z

i have tried to, but i guessed i need extra more time still.
actually, i do have alot of things unsaid. but then again, should i say it out.
wish there was more time.

once was enough, dont let it happen again please !

* can i have the boxes of pictures back by this week please.
it's once a week, and do you know how much i do miss you (: